Kameron Scott

So I got the sudden urge to write something last night. I’m gunna write a short story that I’ll publish either here or on other sites in installments. I have the main character’s name and profile already in mind. I just wanted you guys to help suggest a setting or overall theme to my story. It will have erotica in it, so no need to suggest that lol.

Leave me a comment to what you think.

-Kam

This is my first time I’ve done two posts in one day. But I was doing some thinking in my chat and wanted to come get somethings off my chest. Just some rambling I guess. It may or may not be lengthy. Depends on what else my mind wonders to. I have music playing so it could get REALLY random.

First off…my parents are complete morons. I don’t understand how they can say they’ll love me unconditionally when I came out to them my Freshman year in high school, and then say I’m going to Hell when I was honest about my porn work. It was sooo awkward at my brother’s wedding. He said I could bring a male date if I wanted, but God knows my parents would have flipped a shit about that. It’s like everyone else in my life is completely fine with my life and career…EXCEPT them. The person who gave birth to me has completely written me out of her life. I think something is wrong with me. This should be bothering me more than it is. I feel bad…that I don’t feel bad ( Love that song BTW).

I do want to take a jab at some people in the industry right now. I was reading an open letter that Cockyboys.com owner Kyle Majors wrote today about condoms and STD/HIV testing in the biz. I agree with him 100% that it is absolutely careless for studios to use condoms as the model’s only means for defense against whatever their scene partners may or may not have.  And then for that studio to say we look out for our models because we use condoms and then allow an oral cum shot to take place is fucking retarded. They might as well have fucked bareback and did an internal cumshot. The whole reason for using that condom was just throw out the window. While on the subject of barebacking, I find it hard for me to chastise BB companies because of what I did two years ago. I’ll leave it up to the big wigs to fight over that. What I don’t like is this website called baretwinks.com that tries to justify their bareback content by saying all models are test prior to shoots and listing all the reasons why condoms are no good. BULLSHIT!!!! How retarded are those people? Why would you tell the gay community that condoms fail and if you’re tested then barebacking is fine. That is what you are essentially saying right?

That rant felt good. Now what else to talk about…uh…oh yeah…my New York Mets are KILLING me. Literally a piece of me dies every time they lose. They keep this up and I’ll be dead by the end of the 2010 season. Where’s Dwight Gooden, Ho Jo and Gary Carter when you need them? I’m about to pick a new team. I’ve been a Mets fan since I could walk…but I like a winning team. It could be worse though. I could be a Pirates fan. Just saying.

The scar on my right pinky is taking forever to completely heal. The doctor said I wouldn’t have a scar…and he lied. There goes my dream of being a hand model.

I don’t really know what else to write for now. Maybe tomorrow…

-KS

So we all just had a family sit down talk/meeting on the back porch. I cleared up a lot of air on what’s been going on in my life right now. You see, I tend to keep things that bother me all bottled up on the inside instead of letting it go or talking it out with someone. It’s weird how everything that has happened in this house good or bad has some sort of effect on me. Some days my head just isn’t in the right place and I mope around. The guys in the house preceived it as me being pissed off and being a asshole. Now they know that isn’t the case. But I can’t help but feel that what was said out there fell on deaf ears to some…and that bugs me a little. See…here we go again. I doubt things are gunna change but we shall see. There’s only one person I really care about and it’s shit with him that’s bugging me the most. It shouldn’t be…but I can’t help it. I’ve even started talking to someone else outside of the house the past few days and things seem to be going well…so far. I’m afraid he may be clingy, just like I am. SCARY.

Tune into my show tonight bitches!

-KS

What do you think? Do the boys and Chance look tired?

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Jake and Chance decided that an afternoon power nap was in order.

Bryan fell asleep while I was watching tennis today.

I guess even Chance deserves a break.

Ok…So I may not be this dumb ass, but I sure as hell fell just as stupid as he is. Today is one of those days I wish this house was full of cameras. You fellas missed one hell of a show last night. And just for a plug…this message is brought to you in part by our good friends at thesword.com.

I guess whoever does the tweeting for the sword saw my tweet about my last post on here and asked if I’d do an interview on what it’s like to live in a cam house. I was eager to jump at that to get my blog and the site some more traffic. Just my luck that he called right when Sean arrived, so I only got to talk to Sean for a few minutes before he had to leave. It was kind of an annoying interview and not because AT&T dropped the call TWICE. I was asked more questions about my feud with Diesel and my personal bottom cleaning habits than I was about the site. I had fun answering all the questions. I think I’m the most candid porn star EVER.

The interview was posted last night. I read threw it pretty quickly and thought it was good. I even left a comment saying I loved it. But come to find out later that night some things I said were presented in the wrong light and turned out completely disrespectful towards one of the other models. God knows I talk shit, but not like that. Read my blog and what I said about Jake, then go read what the Sword has written. Two completely different opinions. I don’t know if things were communicated incorrectly or if things were just molded to make a more interesting story. I’m from a military family and I know the sacrifices that those men and women do. My father was in the Navy for 23 years, and spent 18 of those years at sea including two tours of Vietnam. My family knows everything about sacrifice. If it weren’t for an unfortunate baseball injury and a lying NCIOC, I’d most likely be off somewhere in a Marine Corps uniform and the world wouldn’t know Kameron Scott.

Well, I wanted more drama and I sure as hell got it last. I was made to fell like a fucking terrorist in the house. I went from loving the house to hating and wanting and being asked to leave. There were some other litigating circumstances that set things off too but they aren’t important. Actually…let me rephrase that. The are important but I’m choosing to leave them out. Does that work better? And on top of all of this bull shit, I had to deal with issues with Sean. I will apologize to Sean for me being such a mess sometimes. (I think this is my second public apology EVER) As far as what I SAID on my blog…I stand by it. For what the Sword wrote…I can’t help being misrepresented but I’ve come to accept the fact that that’s what they do over there. It’s all good. It’s dirt under the carpet or water under the bridge or any other metaphor you can think of.

-KS

Today is just one of those days. I have to literally force myself to get up and moving. If I don’t, I’ll stay on bed all day. That’s why I love writing. Gives me something to do everyday. I mean I check my email, myspace and my twitter ALL DAY but writing gives me an escape for the day. I have no problems with talking to people face to face about what’s on my mind, but writing it out helps me sort things  out.

Things with the people in this house are starting to get a little aggravating. I just don’t get them sometimes. Well, Chris I get. He’s either really busy or not. I can sit in the same room with him and talk out of my ass and he wouldn’t even know. It’s kinda fun though. God knows I love to talk. Thorn is like the Den mother. Enough said. Jake…what else can I say about him. We’ve still yet to talk. I thought our military backgrounds would give us something to help bind over, but I was wrong. I get along with his boyfriend who i hardly see better than him. That’s not supposed to happen with people you live with lol. Since Bryan has been back in the house I’m starting to get along with him. I didn’t like him at first because of his boyfriend Hayden, but now that he’s single we’ve talked a little bit more. He’s a little immature, but who wasn’t at 19?

Now I know I complained about the boys here in North Carolina, but things do work out for those who wait. I met Sean online when I first moved here but it took me a week to convince him to come meet me and hang. He got here and was blown away. You know how some people’s pictures don’t do them justice? When I opened the front door I was blown away by his face. Judge for yourself.

I do have to say that I love his ass. We did a show together that night to break the ice and I ate his ass forever. Members were asking for more, but I’m a good businessman…never give it all away at once. Maybe we’ll announce when we do our next show so you boys can see what you want Sean and I have really bonded over the past few days. Maybe a relationship is in the works, but only time will tell. I’m gunna take things slow and see if it pans out anywhere. I’m in that ” I miss him when he’s gone and can’t wait to see him again” stage right now. I feel like a little school girl.

*Sigh* Well…I’m running out of thought…but feel free to leave me yours.

-KS

I think uncertainty is thing we all fear the most. And uncertainty is something I’ve had a lot of in my life recently. I’m not as much concerned with the uncertainty of porn work, but more importantly what’s going to happen to me tomorrow. Ever since leaving Florida again, I never know what I’m going to wake up to. Even though I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back and food on the table, I just want something more. I want a sure thing.

Before I gave up porn for my boyfriend back in December of 2008, I was at the top of my game. I had just signed a contract with a studio and everything was going my way. The one decision throws everything out of sync. I burnt some bridges either completely or partially. I’m grateful the ones who had my back no matter what I did or said. But now that I’m single again, I felt I still had it to make it in the porn business. But since trying to make a return to the screen, I realized it’s not as easy as I thought it was going to be. Three months and not even a phone call.  It’s no one’s fault aside from my own. I should have never given up what I loved for a boy. Even though I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with him, my happiness should have been my number one concern. For once I put someone else above myself.

Now that I’m with the guys at hotcamboiz.com I’m somewhat back into porn. It at least gives me the chance to get my name back out there and show people I’m in shape and ready to be back in front of the cameras. I’ve already gotten people to sign up for memberships just to watch my shows. I’m auctioning off some undies Sunday to try to generate some more traffic to the site and maybe bring some more revenue in. But I what I really crave is to be back on DVD’s or even web scenes. I just want to do some real porn again.

-Kameron

PS: Hey Justin!

It’s been almost one week since I’ve been here in North Carolina. I thought I left drama and trouble behind me in Florida, and I did for the most part. I keep getting told that I’m wanted and needed there, but I just can’t handle that stress anymore. That’s why I left the first time last December. I’ll only be going back to visit or IF I ever get any work booked down there lol. Actually, I’ve kinda had fun calling places and submitting my own pictures for work. I’ve never done it before so I like the rush of a new experience.

I’m still feeling a little like the red headed step child in the house. Thorn and Jake went out Wednesday night. While they were getting ready, Jake asked me if he should wear his necklace or not. I thought the black shirt he was wearing didn’t fit him well so I gave him one of mine to wear which looked MUCH better on him. I walked downstairs and Chris asked me why I wasn’t going. I told him I wasn’t asked to go. I don’t just invite myself to other people’s outings. I’m used to them not asking if I want to do anything already though. So Jake walks back to where Chris was and then comes out and asks me if I want to go. I laughed and said no. I don’t want to be asked as an after thought.

It’s cool though. I met this guy online and we hung out for a bit yesterday. We had a few drinks and watched a football game before I had to come back and do my show. I confessed a lot to him about myself. And then on the way back to the house he decides to tell me he has a boyfriend. I felt completely stupid and used. The best part was he had such a pretty face and after my show he still wanted to fuck. That’s when the buzz kill hit. He apparently had just lost A LOT of weight and hadn’t had the post weight loss surgery. I couldn’t keep it up. I pulled the whole my head hurts thing girls use. Worked like a charm. I’ve lost all faith in North Carolina boys.

-Kam

This is day three in the hotcamboiz.com house. It’s weird for me…it’s a cam house but at the same time it’s not. I only have to do four live shows a week and I’m not broadcast live 24/7. That’s a HUGE change for me from when I was doing both of the CBL houses a few years back. I like it that way sort of. Everyone needs a sense of privacy. Chris did say that eventually they will do to live feeds, which will be cool. I don’t care either way. All that matters to me is delivering a good show for the members. That reminds me, be sure to check hotcamboiz.com/schedule every Monday to get the week’s schedule of shows and of course tune in to mine

The guys in this house a pretty cool. There’s Chris and Thorn, Bryan , Jake and their boyfriends. I’m the only single person in this house. It’s a first for me. I like Jake’s boyfriend. He’s like a twinked-out version of me lol. Makes me glad my father made me play sports in high school.  Bryan and his boy are never here…so I have no real opinion of either of them. Jake is a very tough read. I don’t know if he likes he or not. He’s not very sociable lol. God knows I’m a talker. I don’t think we’ve had a conversation since I’ve been here. I’ve tried to start them but it doesn’t seem to go anywhere. The only real connection we’ve had is when I asked him to crack my back yesterday. I am really starting to miss the ladies at the Green Hills Chiropractic Clinic in Nashville right now. Dr. Barnett always made my back sound so wonderful and Dr. Emeli knew just where to put her needles lol.

Back on topic, the only disappointing thing in the house so far is there is NO drama. Everyone knows I live for it…it’s that right Howard? But then again, it’d be no fun to have some drama and no one else could see it. But if it happens…you’ll read it here I’ve run out of words for now, but I’ll post again soon.

Hugs,

-Kameron

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